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i am really wanting to unleash an obscenity laden rant this morning, but i will try to keep this as G-rated as possible. i am figuring out that i am still being lied to, of course i am still being lied to the man is a liar! this is just all really hard to swallow. he is frustrated with me cause i am catching him so he is being a jerk. i am ready to puke and crawl into the fetal position with plugs in my ears my eyes shut tightly shut and never crawl out of a big hole! if not for my kids and my job i would be doing just that i promise you. i want to scream at the top of my lungs. i can't believe he thinks i am this stupid.